I have been back in the gym for four years. I have lovingly come to call my time spent there my worshipful workout. Today as I was climbing my never ending imaginary mountain I realized that my workout has become even more, He has helped me turn this time into a time of self reflection, of self knowledge and confession as He so gently reminds me of my mistakes, failures and sprinkles in the few triumphs when I have truly let Him work through and in me.
Over the past few years I have climbed about 2500 miles on the elliptical at the gym, but the strides He has given me the grace to take down the path of knowing thyself are infinitely more meaningful.
Sweet Lord, as I dig deeper into knowing myself the demons within surround me… You alone are my refuge and I beg you to please let every sorrow filled tear that falls be full of pure and true contrition, and every joy filled tear that falls be full of pure and true praise and gratitude for You!
I heard the most beautifully worded description from a friend who wants to know her husband more deeply. She prayed, “Melt our hearts into one.”
I haven’t really set a new year’s resolution for myself, but hearing this reminded me of my course and helped me reset my compass. I long for this and I think this is my prayer and my desire in this new year.
Sweet Jesus, please melt our hearts into one and then mold our heart as You will.
Lately all I have wanted to read and learn about are the saints. Why this insatiable thirst?
Is it because my prayer has been, “Please lead us Home” and my eyes are being opened to the ones who can show the way?
Maybe, but this morning I started wondering if He has opened my eyes for another reason. Maybe He wants me to know that I know a saint and he wants me to be able to truly see her, see Him, see her, see Him.
Do we know when we are in His presence? Do we really see Him shining through others? Can we get past the exterior and the good works to really know when He is living in another?
I am not sure that I know when I am in His presence. I am not sure that I would have known Him, but I want to, I long to know Him.
Despite His Majesty, Glory, Wonder and Power, He is bending down to show me.
Look around my friends…. you probably know a saint too. The saints are here with us, helping us, quietly guiding us.
They haven’t gone straight to heaven, they turned from the open gates because they know that it isn’t truly heaven until we have all made it. He wants all of us, they want His will… they want all of us.
The first truly will be last as they continue returning to lift up the rest of us!