I have been back in the gym for four years. I have lovingly come to call my time spent there my worshipful workout. Today as I was climbing my never ending imaginary mountain I realized that my workout has become even more, He has helped me turn this time into a time of self reflection, of self knowledge and confession as He so gently reminds me of my mistakes, failures and sprinkles in the few triumphs when I have truly let Him work through and in me.
Over the past few years I have climbed about 2500 miles on the elliptical at the gym, but the strides He has given me the grace to take down the path of knowing thyself are infinitely more meaningful.
Sweet Lord, as I dig deeper into knowing myself the demons within surround me… You alone are my refuge and I beg you to please let every sorrow filled tear that falls be full of pure and true contrition, and every joy filled tear that falls be full of pure and true praise and gratitude for You!
I joined a gym recently and a few weeks ago I took a body combat class. It was a great class, but I didn’t like focusing on an imaginary opponent.
About halfway through the class I decided that my opponents would be some of my own personal vices. With each punch or kick I focused on pushing out things I don’t like about myself and then tried breathing in virtues I would like to replace them with.
By the end of class it finally hit me…
Imagine standing in a room surrounded by mirrors. As the mirrors reflect back on each other their reflections go to infinity, but as you look you can only glimpse the edges of infinity because YOU are in the way.
I am my only obstacle.
The only way to truly follow our sweet Jesus is to get out of our own way, deny ourselves.
For every wrong done to us I think we need to recall a wrong that we have done to another and then suffer through that memory rather than stew over what has been done to us. I don’t think it is easy and I think this is just the first step, but the only way to get anywhere is by taking the first step.
Jesus thank You for waiting so patiently to take this first step and every other step along the way by our sides!
I watched the PBS documentary, The Mystery of Love, this evening.
At one point the documentary was discussing loving the whole world and it was mentioned that the Buddhists all say that during their wedding ceremonies the bride and the groom should marry the whole world, through this one person, and that rabbis have a similar expression that the whole world is a huppa or the whole world is a wedding canopy.
On the morning of his wedding, Ketsu Norman Fisher, a Zen master wrote this poem.
Of all the women in all the world
Delicate in their various encasings of body, of mind;
This one, bent asleep before me, in the bed,
Is the one through whom all must be loved,
As I have promised.
I thought this was beautiful and I had this moment of truly feeling loved and honored by this man who I have never met, but knows that I am delicate. What a blessing!!!
In Our Best Life I know that I truly love all of you and since I want to live Our Best Life now, I am going to begin intentionally trying to love the whole world! I pray to be able to truly love everyone who is put in my path and I pray to send YOU my love by loving everyone who is put in my path.
Jesus said to love your neighbor as yourself. It is Our Best Life, let’s LIVE it!