Some times when I am thinking of Him, reading about Him, listening to a song that fills my soul with Him… I feel a sense of urgency – a deep need to tell others of the great and overwhelming sorrow we will feel when we arrive at the foot of His throne and realize how little we did if anything and how much more we should have done to praise Him with every breath, every action, every thought during this short life of ours.
Then the moment usually passes and I slip back into the world, but NOT TODAY my friends. Today is different… today I said a little prayer when this feeling came over me and I asked Him to give me the words to share. Sweet Lord, I pray that these words are not from me, but from Your Sweet Holy Spirit.
Let our lives be nothing but the echo of God.
I am not sure why, but from a young age I was blessed with the understanding that I should make my time spent doing things count. In school I was never one to goof around while studying. I never understood this attitude and I always figured that if I was sitting here looking at the book I might as well actually learn the material. Whenever I went to an exercise class or practiced a sport I had the same thought and I gave it my all during practice without complaint.
I don’t think I have lost this blessing. I still want to make my time spent doing things count, but now as an adult I am starting to see that I need to worry more about where I am spending my time that counts.
The more I read about Our Blessed Mother, the more I am starting to see my reading as a self indulgence and an excuse to learn more about her rather than really getting to know her.
I am starting to see that I must exchange my reading for prayer and I am feeling a sense of urgency. I am not sure why this sense of urgency has come over me, but it is here and I must jump in.
My friends, please pray for me as I begin to pray. I pray that this is not an empty resolution or a good intention that I will not keep. Instead I pray to make my time in prayer count as I have done in so many other activities throughout my life. Please join me in prayer and remember me in your prayers.